waiting...

Waiting for something is the worst thing ever!!! I just hate it!!! And it doesn’t really matter whether I’m waiting for someone or something… it doesn’t matter whether I’m waiting for a phone call or an email… I simply don’t like waiting for anything or anybody…

I know I’m definitely not the only person in the world who just can’t stand waiting but I’m just wondering why? What is it about waiting that is so frustrating? And I have come to a quite obvious conclusion: I don’t like waiting because I don’t have any influence on the outcome of what is about to happen… I don’t even know if this makes much sense… it's just this feeling of waiting itself does not depend on me… I have to wait until something happens… I have to wait until someone writes to me or calls me on the phone… it is this anticipation of something that drives me nuts… Am I becoming this irrational and obsessed crazy woman…?

But, on the other hand, I should actually be thankful that I have to wait for certain things to happen in my life… Those moments of expectation force me, in a strange way, to be more patient… they teach me how to wait… they make me realize that waiting is a virtue… and that only patient people reach their goals and realize their own dreams...

And I think I might have to start enjoying those moments of waiting as I have got so many dreams which I want to realise... and they will come true... eventually...

The truth is that you can learn anything... even how to wait...

and you can become fond of anything... even of waiting... :)

Izabela

Searching the World Wide Web, I have discovered some very interesting info about my name and me as a person. Apart from some rather obvious facts (that Izabela, for instance, is a Spanish version of the Latin name Isabel), I have found out some characteristics that are, according to that website, linked to the name Izabela. Surprisingly, many of them relate to my persona to a very large extent...

Personality
Izabela is a person who discovers other people’s souls and loves to learn new things (absolutely true!). Main virtues include being on-the-go (yup...), intelligence (I hope so...:), strong will (definitely...) and sentimentality (although, sometimes there is too much of it, I must say...)

Type
Women whose first name is Izabela are characterised by self-control that lets them face many difficult situations (not always, at least in my case... ;)); they can be dangerous and aggressive in some circumstances (hell, yeah!!!); they usually cause troubles when they are young and are hard to control at times (well... my parents certainly couldn’t do anything about (meaning: prevent in any way) some of the most stupid things that I did as a teenager... but who hasn’t been young and wild, right...?)

Psyche
Izabela is an outgoing extrovert who manifests her own reactions and easily adapts herself to the surrounding environment.
I think I am a classic example of an extrovert – I'm energised by being around other people; I tend to think as I speak (and I sometimes wish I was able to think things through before I say something...); certain concepts, ideas, views or beliefs (and even scientific facts...:) just don’t seem real or existent unless I can talk about them to someone who is able to convince me that a certain thing is true, is there for real and exist whether I like it or not... (electricity is the first thing that comes to my mind... but, please, don’t let me start on this one now... I will probably come back to this concept later on in my blog as my perception of it and my views on it are truly interesting and worthy of note...:DDD)
Apparently, an extrovert is characterised by main two features: choleric and sanguine. I’ve got both... I am choleric: touchy and irritable, fidgety and impatient, can be aggressive and impetuous, inconstant and unstable, optimistic and active...
I am also sanguine: impulsive and sociable, frank and easy-going, talkative (I’m not sure about this one, though...) and sensitive (sometimes too sensitive...), vivacious and happy-go-lucky, bossy and dominant (without a doubt...)

Will: very strong - you cannot let her walk all over you - that is, unfortunately, true... ;)

Excitability: huge!!! :):)

Responsiveness
Izabela doesn’t react; she explodes and breaks loose...
Let’s make something clear here... never try to persuade me out of something with too much force and intensity... better try to convince me that what I want to do is not in my best interests... that’ll work...

Pursuits
Izabela thinks she has come to this world with a very precise plan of how to live her life and everybody around her must take part in this battle (really? I’ve never thought about it this way...)
Apparently, I am one of a very rare type for which every door stands wide open... (yeah, right... I wish!!!). One thing, for sure, is true – if I lose self-confidence and stop believing in myself and in my destiny, meeting with a repulse is a certain thing...

Intuition
Izabela easily finds out deeply hidden mysteries of the surroundings.
Don’t you ever, I mean NEVER, EVER lie about anything because I will read it in your eyes and thoughts...:)

Intelligence: high (at least that is what the website says about intelligence of people with the same name as mine… I really don’t want to come across as a smartass but I definitely don’t consider myself brainless...:)
Izabela is born with diplomatic skills which she can use in every possible situation. She has got a great memory (I haven’t been sure about that lately... my recollection of things, even the simplest things, has been a bit wobbly these days...) and an enormous curiosity of the surrounding world (this is definitely true :)

Emotions
Feelings and passions have a huge impact on Izabela’s life.
If I believe and love, I can move mountains... If I despair and lose hope, everything else falls apart...

Ethics
Izabela’s ethics consist of rigour, discipline and gradual compromises... When it comes to individuals, she is very strict; when it comes to events, masses and nations, she allows far-reaching compromises...
Actually, I completely disagree with this one! It’s the other way around for me... I can compromise on something with one person but I am definitely not peace-making when it comes to bigger ideas or believes.

Health
Although Izabela’s health is rather good, she needs to take care of it – what requires the most attention and care is her stomach...
Sadly, this is very, very true!!!

Sensuality
Izabela’s personality comprises a good deal of masculine characteristics (strange but true!!!). Sex, for her, is either everything or nothing... She can sacrifice everything for higher ideals and values, even intimacy. However, when physical act of love (oh, don’t you just love this expression...:) becomes her main principle, everything can happen...
Let’s not comment on this one...:))

Dynamism
High…

Sociability
Izabela is a proud person (definitely sometimes overconfident). Her friendships can be despotic now and again (now that I think about it… it may actually be true…:OOO) but once she favours somebody with it she is very loyal and faithful (I think Pati may have a view on this one :)

In summary
Do not get in the way while Izabela builds her fortress. Let her manage everything and let her be in command of everything... and if she forgets about you in the moment of chaos, enjoy those short moments of breathing space :))


interesting... very interesting...

DEPECHE MODE

I have just bought tickets for Depeche Mode show on 15 December at the O2 Arena in London!!!

It's one of the 36 shows they will play during their world "Tour of Universe".

I love these guys and can't wait to see them live :)))

I am soooooo excited!!!

time

Does anybody know why time flies so quickly?

I wake up in the morning, do some usual stuff and it's evening suddenly...

It has been actually proven that time is a form of temporal illusion. An experiment called the kappa effect proved that the human perception of time between visual elements is perceived relatively shorter or longer. Different people may experience the same period of time to be passing at different speeds. What's more, time appears to pass more quickly as we get older. For example, 1 hour to a 1-year-old baby would pass slower than to a 40-year-old person, even though the measure of time is exactly the same. Isn't that strange?

I have also noticed lately that the less you have to do, the quicker time goes by...

I wish I could catch a bit of time and stop it for a while...

Sunday

Last Sunday, I went to the park with Slawek (my fiance), Angie (our dog), Chiara and Mauro (our Italian friends). The weather was great: sunny, warm, simply beautiful.

We were lying on blankets, had sandwiches and something stronger to drink :)

Chiara was playing a guitar...

Slawek was trying to fly a kite... he "was trying" because with almost no wind flying a kite is kinda... hard to do :D

and Angie was chasing after flying kites and getting herself all covered in mud after jumping into a nearest yucky puddle...:))

It was such a lovely day :)

a crime

I have committed a crime... a murder, to be more precise... and it wasn’t a murder with intent... it wasn’t purposeful, malicious or premediated... it just happened...

I killed my favourite, old shoes... :(

Made from soft, baby blue suede, with platform sole and linear stitching details... they were my favourite, the most comfortable loafers...

The time has taken its toll and, unfortunately, they were too shabby and too tattered to put them on my feet anymore...
I had to put them in a bin... I killed them... that was the end of a great, long and loving relationship...

After 5 years of wearing them, I can honestly say that I have truly and deeply loved them...

Hasta la vista, babies… goodbye and farewell…
I will miss you, my dearest loafers...